I received an Advance Reader’s Copy of this book. All opinions are my own.
I didn’t initially plan on reading Pauline Holdstock’s latest novel because, hey, I’ve The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-Time, and I felt like I’d heard this story before. Quirky, child narrator, somewhere on the Autism spectrum? How many ways are there to tell this story?
I’m happy to report that Pauline Holdstock does, indeed, offer a new perspective and she does so by creating a likeable, adventurous, and, yes, quirky, young character named Frankie. When Frankie’s mother dies suddenly at home, Frankie doesn’t know what to do. Extraordinarily intelligent, Frankie is still only six-years-old and he knows that calling 999 (he lives in England) is for emergencies. Surely, someone already dead isn’t an emergency? No one at school believes him either. So Frankie decides to catch a boat to France and contact his father, who is away on a business trip, from there. (To be honest, it was never clear to me why Frankie had to go to France to do this rather than, say, a local police station. But I accept that kids get weird ideas in their head and this didn’t bother me too much.)
Frankie manages to sneak aboard a large ship and set off for France. Or so he thinks. He makes it several days without attracting too much attention but eventually, his plans begin to change, or be changed.
The book is set in approximately the 1950s which works on a few levels. Firstly, it makes it much more plausible that Frankie could simply walk aboard a ship without a ticket or any sort of security protocol. Secondly, it explains just how difficult life is for Frankie and his family. This is well before special education programs or really much of an understanding of a kid who is vastly different from his peers. Frankie is smart – a head for numbers, a fantastic memory, and an ability to read well beyond his years. He is also socially awkward and doesn’t quite understand the emotions of others. His coping behaviours including rocking and screaming, both of which he is unable to keep himself from doing most of the time. Frankie’s unique abilities make it easier for him to survive as a stowaway but they also make his life in general much more difficult.
We get a few chapters from the perspectives of others – Frankie’s dad, his grandmother, his teacher who ignored Frankie when he told her his mother was dead, and a passenger on the boat. These round out some of the story’s edges and answer questions a reader might have that Frankie cannot tell us. The book ends with an epilogue from a grown-up Frankie. This is helpful as it gives the reader some closure and we get to see a glimpse of how his life turns out. At the same time, I didn’t really enjoy this glimpse and preferred the character of Frankie as he’s portrayed when a little boy.
It’s Frankie who is really the heart of the story. Not just because he is the narrator but because he offers a unique perspective on everything around him. In many ways, he is a very normal little boy, dealing with an unexpected trauma. He’s charming, even while an adult reader can see how difficult he might be in a classroom.
Frankie’s dad’s perspective hint at marital discord, a fracturing of the relationship between Frankie’s parents. There is not a lot of detail or history but we don’t need it. We see the love his dad feels for him and his desperation when Frankie is missing after the sudden death of his wife. There is also a heavy sense of guilt because Frankie’s dad does find Frankie a difficult child.
All in all, Here I Am! is immensely readable and rather thought-provoking.